As of today Ray has been gone for 5 months. Each month that passes I think more and more about how Ray never got to see that day. He never got feel what it was like to be 5 months old. It makes me so sad to think about how short his life was.
On Monday June 13th Adam and I will be on Fox 9 news for a live interview about Ray's Run and SIDS research/information. I am starting to think we were blessed with Ray and live in this heartache for a reason. Adam and I have the opportunity to share our experience and the info we nave learned about SIDS to a large market. We have more resources than most people do. As much asi hate that this is our life, I hope I will be able to help one parent realize that you can't stop SIDS. When Ray died I felt like it was my fault. I felt like I did something wrong. I had so much guilt. I have since learned that there are many misconceptions about SIDS. You can use all the "prevention strategies" that are marketed for SIDS and your child can still die. If I can get through and reach out to one mother and make them realize Thayer can't stop SIDS I will feel like I accomplished something.
The first Annual Ray's Run is scheduled for one week from today. It is turning into something so amazing. We have received over 200 pictures that will be blown up and placed along the race route along with pictures of Ray. We also have over $4000 already donated to the cause. How amazing to see all the support we have and all the people we have that remembering our baby.
Ray, I miss you. Your daddy misses you. Please try to help your Mommy and Daddy this month. Please try to give us some hope and a future again. Baby Ray, I love you so much!
