So I've been a slacker lately. I haven't updated since June. Yikes. There have been so many things going on here and I just have not had the energy to update. So here we go:
The First Annual Ray's Run was held in Maple Grove on June 18th, 2011. It was a very bitter sweet weekend for us. We got an opportunity to remember our little boy, celebrate his life, and the lives of many other SIDS babies. Along the course were over 200 pictures of Ray, some of his new friends in Heaven, and other family members and friends still here. We told people to send in pictures of who they were running/walking for, alive or not. After the run they were able to take the pictures home with them. We had them blown up and printed on durable matt like paper. It was awesome to see all the pictures of Ray mixed in with pictures of our friends and participants. Right as the runners took off and the walkers lined up a HUGE "Ray of Sunshine" shone down on us. I thinki it was Ray's way of saying he was proud of his family. We raised $10,500 this year which we donated to the CJ Foundation for SIDS and the Minnesota SIDS Foundation in Ray's name. After the run we had an after party sponsored by Finnigan's Beer Comapy at one of the local resturants. The resturant came up with a special menu with items named after the babies we had pictures of at Ray's Run that had passed away. It was awesome and exhausting all at the same time. Ray's Run 2012 is set for May 19th, 2012 in Maple Grove.
The week after Ray's Run, on June 24th, we found out we are expecting again. This is part of the reason I haven't had the energy to update :). Baby Labat #2 is due on March 3, 2012. I never imangined how hard and emotional it would be to be pregnant again. It is something that we wanted so badly, but each first with this baby has me in tears. I remember how excited we were with each of those firsts with Ray. Adam has been amazing, as always, and dealing with the emotional ups and downs I have. Turns out with Baby #2 in 9 months you start showing much sooner. Now that I can tell I am pregnant and I'm starting to be less sick I am starting to get more excited. It's been a tough start though. I was much sicker this time around. I ended up with IV Fluids around 9 weeks which made a huge difference. We are one week away from starting our 2nd trimester and I'm starting to feel much better. Around my birthday in October we will find out what this baby is. I don't care what we have, and neither does Adam, as long as it out lives us this time. Last week Adam swore it was a girl, this week he swears it is a boy. He makes me laugh. I have no thoughts either way at this point. I tried to guess with Ray. I tried to talk Adam in to letting me buy a pink sweater. He told me we didn't know what we were having. I told him I did know, I'm the mom, it's a girl. The week after we found out it was a boy. Oops. My motherly instinct needed some fine tuning I guess. Around 8 weeks pregnant this time my cousin, Amy, told us she was also expecting. She is due 2 weeks before us. Again, bitter sweet. Abbie and I were pregnant together with Ray and Sam. I'm glad this baby will have another one the same age that we will spend lots of time with, but I'm sad for Sammy. He was supposed to have a cousin to grow up with. Such is life, I guess.
August has been a tough month. Adam's birthday was on August 12. Last year on his birthday we had a full term pregnancy. We were happy and had this whole future ahead of us. We should have had an 11.5 month old to celebrate with this year. Our Anniversary is on Monday. We have been married for 2 years. I think we have been through more in the 2 years of marriage than most people go through in a lifetime together. It has made us better for each other. Last year we decided to take a picture of our family every year on our anniversary. We have started a "Family Wall" at our house. The first pictures we added were of us, me very pregnant, on our first anniversary, a picture of Roscoe, and a picture of Ray's ultrasound. We were supposed to have a little boy to join us in our family picture this year. Now it will be just the two of us again. Just not where I thought we would be. Ray's first birthday is also coming up. I'm really having a hard time with it. On Sept. 1st we will be in Marshall having a birthday party for a little boy that should be here. Instead I'm trying to decide if I want to decorate his grave or not. Is it silly to decorate a grave for a first birthday? I never thought I would have to make a decision like that. I'm not sure how we will get through his birthday. I know we will. We have made it through 8 months without Ray and I never thought we could do that.
SBR-your Mommy and Daddy miss you so much. We are learning to live again. We are going to be a family again. We wish you were still here to be a part of this new family. I love you so much, Sweet Baby Boy. I'll see you in a few weeks for your birthday!
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