We are going to be letting balloons go for you tonight. I'm sure it will be amazing as always. I hope you see them. I hope Grandma Nancy and Grandpa Henry are celebrating with you today. I wish I could have been. I wish I would have had the chance to watch you grow. I feel like we missed out on so much because your life was so short.
Your Mimi keeps telling me to find the positives (not that anything is positive since you died). So here are a few: Your Aunt Abbie and I are much closer now. Losing you has brought us together. I have a better idea of what my patients are going through now. I understand the feeling of loss and no control they have. I experience it every day since you died. I thought I could relate to my patients before, but I know I can now. your Daddy and I are even better together now than before you. You have tied us together for ever now. He's one of the few that I can relate to now. He knows what it is like to lose you, as a parent.
Oh Baby Ray, I miss you so much all the time. I miss your smile, your sounds, and your smell. I miss how complete you made me feel. I hope you have a good day today and I will do my best to make the best of my day. I love you Sweet Boy.
Here is an e-mail from your Mimi for today. A day to remember Ray:
Pooh says "Nobody can be uncheered with a balloon” so we will send them to Ray and maybe we will all feel a little a moment of cheer! or Ray may be saying my goodness my mom sends a lot of balloons and just like G-Ray I hate squeaky balloons!!!! (this could be true hated the squeaky Sophie!!!)
“Wherever they go, and whatever happens to them on the way, in that enchanted place on the top of the forest, a little boy and his Bear(Sophie)will always be playing.” pooh
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